Hey lovlies, it's been so long hasn't it? So much has been going on lately. I've just been going thru the transition into the school year, the slow. ass. transition. So far for me high school's been SUCKY!
I mean, everything's been changing so much. For example, my best friend and I arn't really at that high of a status anymore, in fact we barley talk... And a good handful of my friends go to another school now! And it's hard to talk to some of them because of no cells, busy, barley go on facebook, etc.. And now, it's like everybody's all seperated. My friends like split up and now it's more like a classmate you see in the hallway(not even since I barley have classes with anybody). Last year, I had so amny friends who were there for me, all of them I could trust with my life... This year, I only have about 3 or 4, and they're all going through their own share of shit or have no clue what I'm going through. Overall, I think I m,ay have developed depression, but I'm too afraid to actually get diagnosed.
And then of course there's relationship foodles too. Earlier this year, I started going out with one of my friends. Things seemed great at first! He was really sweet when asking me out, and great the next few days. But he said he wanted to keep our relationship private, that made me feel awkward. I still went on, then we went public the day before my birthday. And the rest of the time, he like barley acted like we were together, I felt more like just friends still. So, I broke up with him, and we're still good friends.
THen there's my ex... He and I always hang out, but things are just so complicated. He's obviously still upset about our breakup, and I am too; I guess we just show it in different ways. Sometimes he's really nice to me, the other times he's NOT. I can't tell if it's just harmless joking, or serious mocking, but it still hurts. I just miss him, I miss having him there for me. With all the stuff I'm going thru right now, I could really use the type of friend he was.
So yeah, that's pretty much it on my love life. Well, besides the fact that I have my eye on a few differnt guys right now, but I wouldn't say I 'like' them just yet. Besides, I'm too shy and socialy awkward to make a move.
Enough about my personal problems, and no, I don't think you're doctor Phil or something(great show). Let's get on to what's been going on with me art-wise.
My computer's broken, so I need to use my dad's all the time now. That's part of the reason why I havn't been updating. But I do have some stuff in store. Like, for instance, drawings! I have a ton of drawings I'm working on, and I really can't wait to share them with you! Some of those will consist of my OC's and fanart(LOTS of Homestuck fanart!) I'm also going to be posting to my tumblr if any of you want to try to view them there [link]
. Also, I'll have writings in store for you. Okay, so before my computer broke my writing programs got all fucked up, and before I could fix them, my computer broke and all. My dad's has microsoft word, so I'm going to start writing without saving and hope for the best for now. My main plans with stories will be Me and One Direction, LIfe as Aleah, and so far my personal fave, It's OKay Darling. If you have yet to read what I have so far of those if you go to my gallary. So let's see, I guess that's it for now.
Okay everyone! Please comment because I miss you all and it's been ages! Please comment and I have a question that you should feel free to answer: Should I start posting my stories to Tumblr? They all seem like they'd be interested(short stories and It's Okay Darling in particular) but I'm afraid that they could get stolen. What do you think? Should I stop being such a puss and just post, should I not post so it wont get stolen? OR do you know a way for it to not get stolen?